It was her quirky ways that I loved so much.
God, she was funny.
I loved how she crinkled up her face when she got embarrassed or talked incessantly when she was nervous.
Yeah, she was a real diamond.
The kind of girl you’d love to wake up with every day.
She definitely had her dark side, but there was something intriguing about that too because it was real.
You know, she was like this extraordinary, beautiful, smart, creative, funny girl. The kind of girl any man would want.
But she had her flaws too and she wasn’t afraid to show them.
To own them.
And I liked that.
I appreciated the honesty.
The raw emotion she had no fear of displaying.
It could be overwhelming sometimes, don’t get me wrong, but it was magical watching someone come to terms with their demons.
She may not have learned how to conquer them yet, but she acknowledged them.
It takes a lot of courage to own your darkness, to accept the cards you’ve been dealt, to shout out to the world “This is who I am!”
Yeah, I really loved her for that because it helped me to shine a light on my own darkness.
It encouraged me to take a look into my own soul.
It pushed me to conquer my own demons.
So thank you beautiful girl, wherever you are.
Thank you for touching my life and thank you for your love.
It healed me.
*I wanted to write this from the perspective of a man who had been in a relationship with someone who clearly had had a major impact on his life. Although they were no longer together, he had the ability to recognize how this person changed him and took him down a different, more fulfilling path in life. Obviously, we don’t see what split these two up, but the fact that he’s able to put whatever differences aside to see the gifts this person brought to his life while they were in his life, and to be thankful for those gifts, instead of bitter that that person is gone, is the behaviour of someone who is very evolved. That doesn’t come easy for most of us, especially if there is a lot of hurt involved, but I believe when certain people walk into our world and have a profound effect on our lives like that, even if there is hurt, their presence in our lives took us to the next level in our soul’s evolution. That in itself is a reason to be thankful to them. We could not have gotten there without them.